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Week 19, Cycle 10 of 12

Yes, I completed cycle 10, but I may not do 11,12. The pain in my fingers is not going away, and since most people only get about 10 cycles, we think that may have been my last. I will confirm with my doctor on Tuesday whether or not I get one last cycle (#11), but either way, there isn't going to be #12.

What that means - I am done with chemo, potentially - Yaaay! But surgery is a lot closer - Boo! But I can finally get this thing out of me - Yaaay! And I've just had a follow-up MRI, so I am waiting on the results of that - Boo!
Regardless, I am counting step 1 of 3 complete (or almost). Surgery is step 2, Radiation is step 3.

So what have my Tuesdays been like? I've had friends give me a lift these past few cycles because the Benadryl that I get leaves me feeling very woozy. If things run late I get home by 1:30pm or 2:00pm (after being at the doctor since 9-ish). If things run smoothly, I am done by 12:30pm. Either way, it is a long day. I get home and I get into my bed as fast as I can and pretty much stay there until I am forced to get out of the bed when the kids come home (usually around 4:00pm). In that time, I sleep the sleep of the drugged (as I imagine it). I don't move and I wake up feeling like I've been beaten about the body. In Trini parlance I would say I feel "mash up", NOT refreshed. It takes me about an hour to really wake up. And then I feel better on Wednesday.

Tuesdays are also the days when I feel I can legitimately "sign off". It is my day for myself - or as much of the day as I can make it. I might keep that even if I don't have chemo anymore.

I still am not sleeping well, but on the discipline front we are seeing results and the kids seem to have found their listening ears again.

And that's about it for now.

Comments

stressbug said…
Listening ears...we could all do a little better in that department. Here's listening to you, kid.
Savi said…
Hi Sally,

I hope this Tuesday hasn't been so rough for you. Glad to hear you will soon be done with the chemo, and fingers and toes crossed for all to go well with the next stages.

Take care,
Savi
Austin Trini said…
Hello everyone -

I will post some more on the next blog, but step 1 is complete. Chemo is done, now if only I can manage my kids as well as I managed the chemo!

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