Lucas recently tested for his high white belt (karate) and as I looked in on him through the glass doors to his class, I was overwhelmed by the sense of my little boy on his own in the world. He looked so small in his white Gi in front of the table where his Sensei, her Sensei and another instructor, sat. I watched him stand with his weight on one foot, then the other, doing jumping jacks to warm up and practicing kicks and blocks with his classmates. I felt the tears well up and got that old lump in the throat. I hadn't felt like that in a long, long time with Lucas, why now? I think that unlike his spelling test, where I can help him by reviewing the words with him, or his Maths, this was something he had to do on his own. I couldn't help him. Heck, I didn't even know what the right moves were! I guess he is at the age where he will have more and more independent experiences. I will hold on to this picture of him in my mind, and the feeling that washed over me
Life as a Trinidadian in Austin, TX : Breast cancer survivor (triple negative), martial artist, fitness enthusiast. Writing about health and wellness as I am growing older