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The daycare drop off

Yes, we finally did it. I had visions of Liam clinging to my leg and screaming he didn't want to go to school - in Kindergarten! That and the fact that I felt I needed the time for me prompted the decision.

He goes 2 days/week and started last month. The first day, my husband was very excited to have lunch with me, but needless to say I wasn't very good company. Every 2 seconds my eyes filled with tears. I had to remind Gunnar that Liam was my constant buddy and went with me everywhere for the last year. It was very hard to abandon him to daycare where they won't sing to him while changing him or kiss his toes like I do.

It's taken me a month to get around to planning to do something with the time - I keep thinking (hoping?) that I'll have to bring him home. I tried to make the transition as smooth as possible for him (we were going to the school for a couple of weeks before he started), but he still cries when I leave. It takes me a good 1 1/2 hrs to stop pottering around and focus on doing something productive with the time.

"It will be good for him" is what I keep thinking. Don't think about the look in his eyes when I walk out.
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